Weekend!!!!!!!!

Last weekend was full of emotions. First, Friday started well. My friends called me to invite me to a party. We went to "Blondie" discotheque, because there was a "Depeche mode special", my favourite band. Only music by Depeche Mode!!!!!!!!!!! We danced all night. I was great!!!!!!!!!!!!! I felt very well because I was with people that share my taste in music, besides they were all very nice.




But, on Saturday everything changed...My mother was very sick, with a headache and a stomachache. She has got an awful disease, but I don't want to talk about this. It Is sad for me to talk about my mom’s disease. I think all the time about the this. My mom is the most important person for me and we have both shared this difficult situation.

I have forgiven Jesus.

My favourite song is "I Have forgiven Jesus" by Morrissey, of from the disk "You are the quarry"(2004). These lyrics mean a lot for to me. They reflect the way I feel now: sad, disappointed, but with hope in these hard moments. I sometimes feel that I'm not able to cope with all the problems. I don't want to hear death knocking on the door of my house. When your life changes at any moment, you don't know what to do no what to think. I sometimes hate my life, or I feel distressed. Other times I feel that I must be strong and t continue with my life. In those moments I ask to God: Why have you abandoned me? I feel that he deserted me, but at the same time I have forgiven him, because I know that only with his help I'll feel better. These lyrics by Morrissey are sarcastic and I like them. You can check this song here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qF0yHY9q6Us

I have forgiven Jesus

I was a good kid,

I wouldn't do you no harm

I was a nice kid,

With a nice paper round

Forgive me any pain,

I may have brung to you,

With God's help I know, I'll always be near to you

But Jesus hurt me,

When he deserted me, but,

I have forgiven you Jesus

For all the desire,

You placed in me when there's nothing I

can do with this desire

I was a good kid,

Through hail and snow, I'd go just to moon you, I

carried my heart in my hand

Do you understand, Do you understand

But Jesus hurt me,

When he deserted me, but,

I have forgiven you Jesus

For all of the love,

You placed in me when there's no one

I can turn to with this love

Monday - humiliation, Tuesday - suffocation,

Wednesday - condescension, Thursday - is pathetic

By Friday life has killed me,

By Friday life has killed me,

Oh pretty one, Oh pretty one

Why did you give me so much desire,

When there is nowhere I can go to offload this desire?

And why did you give me so much love in a loveless world,

When there is no one I can turn to

To unlock all this love?

And why did you stick in self deprecating bones and skin?,

Jesus do you hate me?

Why did you stick in self deprecating bones and skin?

Do you hate me?, Do you hate me?, Do you hate me?,

Do you hate me?, Do you hate me?